Ranting: Clueless!

I am clueless about life. I don’t know where I want to go and what I want to do. It’s not like I don’t have goals in my life but most of the times I question myself is it worth it?

Apparently I look normal but  something is gnawing me deep inside which I have no clue of. This uncertainty is just melting away my vigor, my optimism in fact my whole being. I feel like a speck of dust in this immense universe who is useless, worthless and colossal failure.

Being clueless is not what I am proud of. I am not and I don’t know how it has crept into my system. Probably because I am far away from achieving my aim. Is it because of my fear or my habit of procrastination? I do know the answer but I don’t want to accept it.

I feel like my existence has no significance in this huge world

I am just a speck of dust in this immense universe

Every day is like a struggle for me

I am on a quest of nowhere

The self-realization is obscured under the burden of bafflement

Don’t know how long will it take me to find my path of self-discovery, my path of self-realization!

 

 

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‘Unknown’ Quest

'Search of Life'

We ask this question once in a lifetime that why we are here in this world?  We are living in this world but we do not know the real reason of our subsistence. We all are running behind something but that ‘something’ is always out of our reach because we have never-ending desires which never quench our thirst.

Every so often, life seems to be meaningless; you are confused in between wrong and right but what is wrong for you; it maybe right for someone else. You try to justify with all the reasons even after that you are discontented with the answer. It is like a game of puzzle where you have to find your way through confounding mazes.  We pass different stages of life and every stage teaches us something but only those people learn who have an urge to gain wisdom.

The quest of finding oneself takes one’s whole life; many people travel the path of self-realization but only rare reach their destination. As a Muslim, we believe that our main goal is to live in this world according to the directives of Almighty but then everyone does according to their comfort zone. It is confusing because I am also in a perplexed state and the road to discover about my existence in this world makes me clueless…I know it makes no sense but then life also makes no sense…