In Solitude, I Find Myself!

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A chaos filled inside me

No path is there to be seen

Everyday walking on a rough terrain

With nowhere to go, nowhere to reach

A quest of unknown territory

Feel a useless speck in a large scheme of life

Thoughts rampage and at the brink of insanity

Befuddle feelings and slow mind-numbing nothingness

Scary thoughts surround me everyday

Make me fall into deep pit

Complete meltdown and inability to face greatest life fears

Feed my addiction for perfectionism and measure my worthiness with material objects

No happiness, no contentment still I can find

Little do I know

In the midst of apprehension and uncertainty

I uncover my sense of purpose

All it takes a little digging to reveal the truth

In solitude, I seek solace

In solitude, I find myself

In solitude, I find God

The few lines above are my sentiments which I have gone through in the last few months. On the outside, I looked fine and healthy. But inside, a mysterious feeling was gnawing at me. I felt like my inner fear was slowly feeding on my soul. I was falling into a trap and nobody could see. I went under a cloak of invisibility. It was the time when I started listening and reading the materials that could inculcate some sense and relief to my mind and heart. And there it was, I read about Ishq Majazi (love for human) and Ishq Haqiqi (love for Allah). This made me see the world in a different perspective which I lost somewhere while living a meaningless life.

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When you love a human, you have expectations and emotions which make you restless and anxious all the time. And with this love are associated desires and wishes that are endless. Your heart is always on the lookout for new things and there is no direction in your life. You are also likely to experience heartaches, discontent, sadness and a fear of being abandoned by your love in any time of your life.

On the other side, there is one true love which spreads tranquility in your life and that is the love of Almighty Allah. It is at the times of grief, one finds comfort in the remembrance of Allah. Love so pure and true that bring calmness in your life. Where ever you turn, you see Allah in every being and in every element of this world. The anxiety and distress are replaced by happiness and contentment. There is such sweetness and pleasure in the name of Allah that by repeatedly invoking His name, every sorrow is turned into joy.

The love so pure gives you direction and replace your heartaches with fulfillment which you may not find anywhere. This love enables you to forget about your self (Nafs) and think beyond your desires and do something meaningful. Your main and only aim is to attain closeness to Allah and to achieve that you perform acts that bring you closer to Allah.

This love is not easy to achieve and you may fail many times, you can lose your direction and there is a slight chance for you to bounce back to your old life. But not for long because the sweetness and pleasure this love has brought in your life, will not let you stay away. Perseverance, patience and tolerance are keys to success and this is what keeps you going throughout the life.

Embrace this love and allow to let go of all the negative feelings brewing inside you!

 

Realisation-an art to own fault and move on!

Hope gives you a reason to live

Hope gives you a reason to live

Realization is an art; it is learned only when you are ready to accept that whatever happens; it happens for good. This is no easy art because for an individual who is entirely absorbed in its past life, cannot realize that things or events were not meant to stay for long. Letting go is the next step after realization. Sulking over past will just make a person miserable as one is not able to concentrate on the present which is happening just now. The vulnerability of a person varies but only the learning of leaving past in the past will make it easy for one to learn the art of realization. This is not an easy task because it needs a lot of encouragement from within.

However the question arises that how can one learn to realize and starts making peace with its past?

Let’s say each passing moment adds up to your past. You have no control on time but yes! You definitely have a control over your decisions. One wrong decision and you throw your entire life into pits. Decision once made in your life especially a bad one can change the entire course of life.  You have to suffer the consequences of your bad decision whole life. After a while, you start getting irritated and in the meantime, your sleep pattern changes completely due to which you feel grogginess whole day.

Just let it go!

Just let it go!

But this is just a phase which can take only a day or few more days. The bad feeling depends on an individual because it is just a matter of ‘realising’ that now once the decision is made, either good or bad has been made, it cannot be undone. So why go on that path by which you cannot come back!

Life is made up of good or bad decisions, sometimes one fail and sometimes one just shines through. You don’t have control on time and consequence of your decisions. But what you have in your hand is to let it go and realize the essence of experience.

Each new decision teaches you a lifetime lesson but the moment of realization is within you. How soon you want to forget and carry on with your life which is slipping by your hand each day, entirely depends on a person. Once the art of realization is discovered, the path becomes easy to walk. Burdening oneself over the past’s triviality will only make one’s life worse and suffocated. Revealing oneself to the truth of life’s unpredictability will change the way of thinking, which ultimately helps one to move forward instead of lingering in the past.

So, embrace what comes to you because sitting back and regretting about your past is an easy way out but embracing the unexpected avenues of life will take you places. Carry on with the quest until you succeed!